me turns 26

my friend officemate made this for me

thanks yhavz ^_^

just letting go

Nov 11 something happened that I thought never would.
I wish it could be undone, oh, if it only could.

I realize the memories I've made will be all there is.
My grandmother's memories, mine and hers.

See, my grandmother's passed away that day and will never be back.
And now it's moments with her that I will sadly lack.

she won't see me walking down the isle.
See me having her apo on me.

But I know she's in a better place.
she resides in Heaven, and is surrounded by God's grace.

Now she can watch over me throughout the night and day.
And I can pretend that she's not really away.

she can stay with me in a place inside my heart.
And of me, she can still be a part.

still in pain and sorrow

yes i am still in pain even if it's been a week and 4 days since
my loving grandma die
she is always on my mind in every days past and every days comes
every night i think of her and i always cried
it's so hard for a girl like me that grows with my grandma
too hard to let go off to someone that in 26th years of my
life she will be lost and gone forever
that in everydays comes, i can't she her presence anymore
no one to talk to when i'm alone
too hard to loose someone that since i was a kid she is always there for me
tiredless of loving me, guiding me and taking cared of me

thank you lola for making me a good person
thank you because you become my lola
thank you for all the love you gave to me

thank you lola for everything you did to me since i am baby
your memories still in my heart and remembered you forever
'till my last breath end too...

may you rest in peace my dear grandma
i love you so much

thanks too to all family and friends that always there
making me smile and comforted me on my hardest days

for every girl with a broken heart

For every girl with a broken heart,
there’s always a boy with a scotch tape.

Adhesive is nice but time will come
when the paste would wear off
and the roll of tape would be empty.

Then the broken pieces of her heart
would start falling again.

What she really needs is a man
who would lovingly take the time
to gather the fragments,
put them in a pot to melt
and reshape it with his heart
as the mold so it won’t fall into pieces again.

lonely mhe

this is one of the loneliest night i ever had

can't sleep
can't eat

he's always on my mind every single minute

well, the tears are starting to slow down now..

emo mode (nasakit ti pusok ita)

some quotations that i think fit for my heartache today (from the internet)

Walking, working, barely breathing
My thoughts, far away
Heart aching, mind racing
Sleep does not come easily, nor last long....
~Peter Winstanley

Numbing the pain for a while
will make it worse
when you finally feel it.
~J.K. Rowling

Everyone is always askin me whats wrong...
but i dont even think it makes any sense,
its just... my heart hurts

some photos on my vacation