dreaming her last night

last night i pray that if i could only see my lola
even just in my dream i want to see her
and hug her tight 'coz i really missed her

and i see her
very alive and just
sweeping in front of our house in province
but all i remember is just
i looked at her

if i could only knew in my dream that shes gone
i would embraced her very tight

hindi ko alam kung kelan ko uli makikita si lola sa panaginip ko
kung maulit man yun sana sa pagkakataong yon mayakap ko n sya

my meaningful 2010

my life in 2010 is very meaningful to me
because my grandma lives with us and my cousins
for almost 5 months that i can see her everyday
i can talk to her smile with her and
having chitchat on her
this is the longest days we have each other
since i work here in manila

every time my salary give
i buy her ice cream because she loves it
bread because in the morning
she wants coffee with bread
medicine for her cold too

if i have no work i comb her hair
or she ask me to see her head
because she felt that there was
something crawling in it like kuto

every night we watch tv
sometimes with friends
and everytime we sleep
we talk the past
or making tsismis to people
in our province hehe

i remember the past
that there was this time she can
always makes me smile or laugh
neither i am angry nor sad

yes this happy moments shes stay with us
makes my life more meaningful
and hoping that her last days
i make her life meaningful too

i missed you lola

a lot of things have changed for me in the last 3 years

year 2008
new job
new living arrangement
new friends
new bags,new shoes,new dress (for work)
new room
new cabinet
company outing at bolinao pangasinan

year 2009
find my special someone
new pillow
company outing at anilao batangas

happiest and saddest year 2010

new phone
new laptop
buy carabao for our farm
company outing at puerto galera
and the last month of 2010
i released a motor named rusi
and i could have never imagine
i will own things

but there's the saddest thing happen
when we lost our loving grandma T_T
i really missed her